And then what?
Bulimia was the second step… considering anorexia not enough, i also had bulimia and then one step CLOSER to hell!
When you can´t stand pressure, when all the thing happening right then is pushing you to your limit, when you are anxious all the time and the only way out is eating all you can, and then working out till amost faint, or even starving yourself for the next thing to do is eat everything you can to then vomit… then is when you reach the breaking point, coz that is a vicious cycle, you starve, you eat, you punish yourself either working out non stop or vomiting everything you have inside.
Anorexia and Bulimia are part of this thing called OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.
I was so lost back then, i thought i was not good enough and knew i have to be thin, be the best at everything, and while trying that and pushing myself to the limit i stopped eating, there were periods that i just drank water for days to days and didn´t eat at all, or when i was forced to be at the table furing lunch or dinner where i ate everything and then i was in the bathroom for the next 10 minutes, i took diuretics, pills, worked out for hours, and starved myself as a punishment for getting an A- or a B when none of them is a low grade, when i wasn´t selected for a contest because someone knew a bit more than me, or when I thought there was someone prettier than me.
But truth is… you are beautiful in your own way, and as a cliche that may sound, its true… you are unique… you have your own characteristics, you give love, you listen to the ones who need to be listen to, you give a hand to someone who fall, and overall WE ALL ARE BEAUTIFUL coz there is no another ONE as YOU ARE!
This world doesn´t need two people to be the same, THIS WORLD IS WHAT IT IS COZ WE ARE UNIQUE!!
AS LONG AS YOU ARE HAPPY WITH WHO YOU ARE, THE REST DOESN´T EVEN MATTER!!
